PISSED

Pissed. So freaking pissed right now. For one, I have to carry the entire team of students that take the same course as me thus far. I've been doing all the work willingly trying to help them. I'm not saying they are dumb and stupid, they're just smart, but insanely lazy. As friends, I looked past that and did most of the work. So here's how it goes.

I do all the work, finish whatever task was given and email a copy to them only for them to rip parts off it, modify and score higher points than I do. Best part was, they never tell me of what mistakes I have. They just change it and give the improved version of mine in and score off it. They provide company and social interactions to me of which I do the same as well, but nothing academically. Fine, I can tolerate that.

Being in a group of IT nerds, we play LoL almost on a daily basis. And it was tonight that really pissed me off. Not only did they not perform well, on points where they weren't any chance of winning, they decided to hold me off by rejecting surrender. Time which I wanted to work on my assignment, my quiz.

I'm gonna put that off to voice my anger. This is to remind myself to not send anything to them ever again. Why should I waste my time staying up late nights working when they're playing games, having fun, hanging out, drinking and shit.

Often friends will be harsh on one another as a form of motivation and joke. But my past has haunted me and it's making me super paranoid. I have reasons for acting this way.

This is gonna be like high school again where I was used by my "friends". It's happening again but before it reaches a limit where friends turn into strangers, I'm gonna point out the issues we have. Friendships are not deserved in that sense. This is what I personally think.