Friday, April 29, 2011

My New BlogSite

Hi guys,

I'm not sure how many people reads my blog. But for those who are reading this, I have uploaded a new blog that would be more visually attractive and compelling. Hope you guys will visit it when you guys are free.

www.iwanttobeforgiven.blogspot.com

Thanks,
Kevin

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Girl I Loved


Till this day, I have yet found a girl like her. A girl who not only was the world to me, and still is, but also the girl who I've still been thinking about despite the years that's passed by. How long has it been? 2 years? Yet here I am still thinking of her occasionally, recalling historic events as if it happened just yesterday.

I was asked a question about what I liked about her. Back then, I gave reasons.


She is kind.
She is sweet.
She is nice.
She is comforting.
She is passionate.
She is caring.
She can play sports really well.
She can play musical instruments.
She can get really good grades in exams.
She loves being clean.
She loves being tidy.
She loves origami.
She loved the stories I wrote about her.
She loved the stories I wrote for her.
She loved the video I made for her.
She loved the drawing I drew for her.
She loved me.
She was everything to me.

But does liking someone really need a reason? Despite being so multi-talented, so capable, it was not her skills and techniques that attracted me. Not her looks. Not the way she stared at me. Not the smile given to me so many times. Not the jogs / walks we had.

It was because she is who she is. I knew she was the one for me. I didn't know this at first sight though, but I always felt that there was a kind of connection that links both of us. A thin string that would either stay connected or break eventually.

And I placed my hopes on that thin string, that small probability of love, or us being together. And I held on, till now, to the same string which is now connected to no one. nothing.

I suppose your reason for our break up would be "People are people and sometimes we change our minds". As true as that may sound, but my mind hasn't changed yet. No reason to. I chose you long ago. And I'm sticking by my choice. Not because of what you are, but because of who you are.

I have really no idea what I'm writing about. I'm just expressing as my heart feels like, without thinking of the structure of this post.

After watching Strangers Again by Wong Fu productions, I would like to quote a meaningful line from the short as a conclusion that I feel has a great impact on me after watching it. It goes like this -


"I think... that... if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places, I will always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time. And I'll be thankful for that. And hope that wherever you are, you will be thankful too. I think that's the best we can wish for."

Monday, April 18, 2011

The most unfortunate fact about a relationship that doesn't work out, is the inevitable path both parties are on to become strangers. Many relationships follow a general path, through a set of different stages, one that brings two strangers together, takes them through a period of deep emotions and meaningful experiences, then returns them to where they began.

Strangers, again.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

In my dreams,

we met somewhere, after you finished your class. I couldn't recognized you at first but somehow I knew it was you. I followed you up to a point till we both stopped. You looked away from me, trying not to meet my eyes with yours. Next thing I did, I walked forward and hugged you from the back, saying, "I'm sorry." I'm not gonna explain how everything felt, cause it was a dream after all.

It took a while, and you broke away from my hug, turned facing me and went into my arms again. And you started crying as well. We held each other for a bit, tightly and then I got up.

Awakened,

I had a severe chest pain. Either the position that I slept was wrong or I really felt you in my dreams, so deeply it affected me in reality.

Either way, I would've died happily.

Monday, April 11, 2011

THE WORST 50 EPISODE ANIME - BLOOD +

By far the worst Anime I've ever seen. Despite watching only 18 episodes, I found it to be extremely boring and full of bullshit. But to be sure that it's really that bad, I finished the whole Anime, multitasking and surfing the net while being able to predict how the story goes.

Producers of Blood+ are the worst. What genre is it supposed to be? According to Wikipedia, it's supposed to be Adventure and Supernatural. Clearly it isn't based on action at all. So I shall not blame it too much on it's action and fighting scenes. Many of you who've watched it will realize how Chiptoreans alone are smarter and more powerful than Saya, let alone Chevaliers. And yet she took them down by just slicing them up. However, the main point here would be that Saya's opponent are more intelligent, stronger, more agile and way superior to Saya. But the fighting scenes always ends with Saya somehow being able to poke her sword into the Chiptoreans. Yay for the dumb stupid Chiptoreans whose brain suddenly degenerated.

Parts of the storyline is stupid as well. The best example would be Episode 13 - where little creeps were trying to kill Kai. Saya who was taken down earlier, suddenly became stronger and managed to slice Phantom. In this process, Kai and the small monsters miraculously separated and were placed in cages. Horrible. Just horrible. They were given 50 episodes to produce a crap like this? SHAME!

Back to the main topic. Adventure. I don't see how going to different places around the world without seeing any monuments make it an adventure. The only thing I can see is that she's travelling across the globe is to kill Chiptoreans only. Kill them and leave for next country. What an adventure. Haha. Go jump off a building please.

Being supernatural is fine and cool with me. Cause that's what it really is. But the messed up part is that Saya's ability is by far the shittiest for being one of the scariest Queen around. All she can do well in is just high jump. As her body passed the pole with ease, everyone would've expected her to have super strength or speed or at least something. But in the end, she can only jump. Wow. That's so entertaining. It's bad enough that Saya's practically useless, it just makes it worse that her counterpart, Diva is way cooler and awesome than her.

Why don't the producers make a story about Diva instead and save us the irony of watching Saya develop to become a pussy. They're focusing the powers on the wrong characters. Dumb people.

How it got its high rating? I don't know. People are blind. Fullmetal Alchemist came out 2 years ago. I believe not many people watched FMA before watching this eyesore.

Both at 50 episodes each.

FMA had better love components with Winry and Edward than Blood+ (with NOTHING!)
Action scenes? FMA taps our imagination by allowing us to see what can be created from something of equivalent value. Blood+? Watching Rurouni Kenshinn would have been better. That was cool at least. Blood+? I'm gonna puke blood and die from it.
Now Adventure. FMA is called an adventure, where they head to different towns and cities to explore. You don't see shit in Blood+.
Emotional wise, FMA has sad moments throughout the series. Emo, sadness, despair, joy, comedy. What does Blood+ have? Sad moment in the first few episodes and that's it.

OST wise, I reckon FMA has the upper hand but Blood+ has some good music as well. But nothing catchy or worthy of listening twice.

Overall, I give this Anime a 4/10, behind Gundam 00 with 5/10. Gundam has robots and cooler fighting scenes and emotions.

I hope readers who found my blog will understand how bad it is. Feel free to comment if you think I'm wrong. I'll prove I'm right.

=) In the meantime, do not watch this anime for those who have yet decided to. Waste your time on other stuff than watching this blatantly dull Anime.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Feelings

I have lost my sleep for a few nights now. Barely got much rest.

It's been so long, I've been trying to sort things out. Ever since I met you, I thought you were a very nice person, a kind and gentle soul. It was from then on that I realized I wanted to know you further, to understand you better, thus leading to us chatting for a bit from time to time. In that time, I know that I was fond of you. I look forward to every time I see you online, to chat with you. Those times were fun as I got to know you more.

However, the time came when you had your exams. I was ignored for obvious reasons. Examinations. That I could live with. Well, I barely just made it through. In that time, I knew

I like you.

Or maybe not. Maybe it was the feeling that someone was there for me ever since my past. Someone who would understand what I've gone through, who'd share the same feeling that I do. It was you. You've always treated me like a friend, but never once I did the same to you. You were more. You meant something to me. You made me feel special again.

But as I started sorting out my feelings, are you really the one for me? Yes. And no. I like you for the way you are. I like you. I really do. Or did. One issue I have would be the fact I'm afraid of getting hurt again like before. I'm aware that I shouldn't just judge. But, this feeling is definitely one-sided. That I'm sure of. That's why, after all those sleepless nights, which I told you I was working on assignments, but in fact I couldn't sleep cause I was thinking about you. So I just used my assignments to get you off my mind.


I avoided you for a reason. It hurts me now to do so, and it'll hurt me more if to find out we wouldn't be together later. So, I'm gonna endure this pain alone while I'm aware you wouldn't feel anything. Let me be. Tonight, I had a talk with a friend of mine who had some problems with another girl. Well, serious issues, worse than mine.

And that's what led to me writing this confession post to you. Or about you. As no one reads my blog, I guess it's safe to express how I feel all the time. I wanna express how I feel, before I dry up inside and die. Everyday, music and gaming has proven to be my closest friend. Not one that I could rely on, something that'll respond to my needs - company. Music calms me down, but never the same way like you do. Gaming only induces more anger. I could go on and on. But... words can never explain how I feel. For you.

I wanna be with you. If this feeling lasts. But our friendship has ended long before. I miss you.

离开你,我才发现自己,找回了自己。
寂寞,悲伤。
想你的夜晚是那么的孤独,
那么的痛苦,
心里想说的每一句话,
能达到你就好,
达不成也没办法。
星星,
说个故事给你听吧!
从前有个月亮,
月亮本来也只有一个,
他好喜欢太阳,
开始时不断和太阳谈天,
但如今再也没对话了。
虽然如此,
月亮对太阳的感情依然无变,
心里只想说一句:“
太阳,我好喜欢你。
你知道吗?”

=(