It's been so long, I've been trying to sort things out. Ever since I met you, I thought you were a very nice person, a kind and gentle soul. It was from then on that I realized I wanted to know you further, to understand you better, thus leading to us chatting for a bit from time to time. In that time, I know that I was fond of you. I look forward to every time I see you online, to chat with you. Those times were fun as I got to know you more.
However, the time came when you had your exams. I was ignored for obvious reasons. Examinations. That I could live with. Well, I barely just made it through. In that time, I knew
I like you.
Or maybe not. Maybe it was the feeling that someone was there for me ever since my past. Someone who would understand what I've gone through, who'd share the same feeling that I do. It was you. You've always treated me like a friend, but never once I did the same to you. You were more. You meant something to me. You made me feel special again.
But as I started sorting out my feelings, are you really the one for me? Yes. And no. I like you for the way you are. I like you. I really do. Or did. One issue I have would be the fact I'm afraid of getting hurt again like before. I'm aware that I shouldn't just judge. But, this feeling is definitely one-sided. That I'm sure of. That's why, after all those sleepless nights, which I told you I was working on assignments, but in fact I couldn't sleep cause I was thinking about you. So I just used my assignments to get you off my mind.
I avoided you for a reason. It hurts me now to do so, and it'll hurt me more if to find out we wouldn't be together later. So, I'm gonna endure this pain alone while I'm aware you wouldn't feel anything. Let me be. Tonight, I had a talk with a friend of mine who had some problems with another girl. Well, serious issues, worse than mine.
And that's what led to me writing this confession post to you. Or about you. As no one reads my blog, I guess it's safe to express how I feel all the time. I wanna express how I feel, before I dry up inside and die. Everyday, music and gaming has proven to be my closest friend. Not one that I could rely on, something that'll respond to my needs - company. Music calms me down, but never the same way like you do. Gaming only induces more anger. I could go on and on. But... words can never explain how I feel. For you.
I wanna be with you. If this feeling lasts. But our friendship has ended long before. I miss you.
离开你，我才发现自己，找回了自己。
寂寞，悲伤。
想你的夜晚是那么的孤独，
那么的痛苦，
心里想说的每一句话，
能达到你就好，
达不成也没办法。
星星，
说个故事给你听吧！
从前有个月亮，
月亮本来也只有一个，
他好喜欢太阳，
开始时不断和太阳谈天，
但如今再也没对话了。
虽然如此，
月亮对太阳的感情依然无变，
心里只想说一句：“
太阳，我好喜欢你。
你知道吗？”
=(
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